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According To You..

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According to the world,
I'm incredibly blessed.
Young and Free,
I have no reason to be depressed.
So, my darkness is hidden,
I pretend that I'm not falling.
Keeping up appearances,
Who, for help, should I be calling?

According to my friends,
They'll always be there.
My extended family,
My loving "sisters" always care.
Now, I'm alone in this room,
They don't hear my cry.
They shun me for each other,
Just two more people who lie.

According to my love,
We'll make it through.
The lying is over,
Her words are all true.
Yet, I'm still terrified,
I've forgotten how to trust.
My heart is a broken thing,
Being devoured by rust.

According to my family,
They all saw it coming.
Long-distance is hard,
I'm neither pretty nor stunning.
Now, I look stupid,
Ignored was their warning.
I told you so is my nightmare,
Even in sleep, I am mourning.

According to everyone,
Love of my razor is a sin.
It's not worth it,
I shouldn't long for it against my skin.
Now, there's no more cutting,
Tribute to pain still must be made.
Searing, white hot against my flesh,
My lighter is my new blade.
~
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BellaBugia's avatar
First of all.. wow. It's frightening how you can be surrounded by so many people and feel so alone. I too, have been in your position. Not only does it become a way to cope, it's almost addictive. But it's far from healthy. You are worth more than that, you need to value yourself more and find a healthy way to deal with life's problems. That being said, I know how difficult that can be. Take the time for you, time to heal, and just because you are young doesn't mean there is nothing to be depressed about, people who say this have no right to say so until they have walked a mile in your shoes. They are ignorant and their opinions do not matter. If ever you need to talk do not hesitate to message me on here, and know that even while in your "real life" you may feel alone, you are never alone here. May you find the peace you seek :heart: